You work up the courage to ask a question that comes from a deep place in your heart and get an answer you didn’t expect. It’s tender for days as it creates even more questions. Or you risk stepping out like Indiana Jones in the Last Crusade hoping your feet find solid ground, and instead find yourself in what feels like a free-fall. You wonder if your expectations were too high or you still are not ready. Again, you must wait and you really don’t want to, but you know from experience that the Father is trustworthy in the timing of your life. Or do you?
There is nothing in your life that He is not completely aware of, enormously concerned about, and intricately involved in. And it helps to remember that. There are some days I repeat it often to myself, out loud, and it continues to drip into a deeper place in me where I am coming to believe it completely.
And it’s always the deep desires of our hearts that can trip us up, isn’t it? (I hear your whispered yes.) The things we’ve desired all our lives that often come to the surface skin of the heart and just touching it, caressing it with easy finger tips can cause a painful longing. Or if those desires get bumped into by words or actions of others, it’s worse than a knee skinned on a rough sidewalk.
And I think of Jesus and how the enemy tempted Him to go after quickly what was promised by the Father. The enemy knew what He wanted, all the nations, but the shortcut offered would have been their destruction. And we would have had no hope as an anchor for the tempest of our souls. His waiting for God’s timing and perfect plan was…perfect like a full-term pregnancy that gives a healthy baby. Not an aborted plan, not a preemie weakling. Fullness.
And isn’t that what we want and truly desire? Fullness? Fullest life.
So how do we respond when we must wait...”Take a seat please, and the promise will be with you in a few _______”….minutes, months, years?
We continue to choose faith. We continue to choose to believe. And we take action steps. We continue to sow seed into believing that promise. We speak out our believing and it does drip in and it does feel that Father’s smile at our seedling faith. And that is really all we need…faith the size of a mustard seed. The smallest of seeds can become the largest of trees and the limbs are strong for the roots have gone in deep, and we find there is room in the branches for more than we could have imagined, more than we even believed for, and we are living full. Thank-full.
Waiting. Necessary, needed, maturing kind of waiting. And that Bible-God is fully aware of where we are, how we feel, and like a good Father, He is parenting us, loving us, and showing us that we can trust Him with the desires He placed in us as part of who we are. They will not fall flat. They will not die. They will not be weak.
Thank-full for these gifts, these blossoms of faith from my life….(please consider sharing your list in a comment?)….
- Healing and growth from hard experiences like divorce and death.
- Voices of grandchildren over the phone excited about the family hike.
- Remembering how God has kept me through life’s everything.
- Seeing my Mom extend love to the “hard to love” in her life.
- Chocolate cake with 6 layers of homemade icing.
- A man’s hands that take mine to hold them close.
- A man’s hands that wipe away tears.
- A dog that sometimes play-attacks and cuddles simultaneously.
- Church with friends who smile and are glad.
- Daughters lives – getting to see them learn to walk again and again.
- A Dad who doesn’t remember everything now, but is always glad to see me.
- Answered prayer from faith words.
- Invited to speak and seeing in eyes the response to the call to fullest life.
- Mistakes forgiven, acceptance no matter what.
- A friend who writes thrilled at the sponsorship of a child in Africa.
- A friend who listens when the Spirit says “call her and pray.”
It’s lists like these that build faith for the unknown, the unseen, the yet-to-be, and instead of the waiting in agony, life starts to become an adventure. Can you share a list that builds your faith? Write as much as you want, friend.
(c) Robin Lawrimore, April 2013
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord,…plans to give you hope and a future…You will seek Me and find me when you seek Me with all your heart. ~Jeremiah 29:11, 13